Day 25

Thursday was pretty eventful for you Titus.

At 4am, I placed you on your changing table and proceeded to change your poopy diaper. When I opened it up, I saw that you weren't fully done pooping. Your poo actually shot out at me, sprayed onto my shirt, my upper thigh and some hit the ground. You haven't experienced life until you've been hit with poop.

Then later in the evening around 9pm, while you were in the arms of Grandma Park being fed, you projectile vomited. Vomit literally projected our of your mouth and nose like a rainbow, twice. I didn't know your stomach could hold such volume.

As difficult it must have been for you, I was in shock by the end of the day and worried about your digestive system. The internet told us that this is all normal so we let out a sigh of relief. haha.

I also went out for the very first time without you. I went to the high school graduation of a few of my students. It felt wrong being separated from you, only at 3 weeks. I'm trying not to think about when I go back to work. It's only a few weeks away now and I want to make sure I get to know you as much as I can before I have to divide my time between family and work.

I am worried about going back to work. July is the busiest work month in the year for me and it was hard enough working without being pregnant or being a mother. I don't know how my body and mind will get through the month. I am seriously contemplating taking another break in August.. but there would be financial consequences.

One day at a time.

Day 23

A mist the late night feedings, sleeping in 2.5 hour increments, being confined to a room with a person you can't have a real conversation with for 3 weeks, feeling like you're doing this alone and starting to get antsy... I was pleasantly encouraged by my husband, James.

He had fallen asleep with Titus in his arms. He nudged my awake and asked me to put him down in his "crib". He passed out on the bed with no pillow or blanket. Later when I tried to place a pillow behind his head, the movement stirred him and he quickly started patting and rocking an invisible Titus in his arms. I waited to place the blanket on him.. and same thing.. he started patting an invisible Titus.
he's really a dad. haha.

we're really parents!

Day 19

It's 8:20PM and I don't think I even brushed my teeth today.

motherhood.